Last summer, I went to OBX with Kimberly. There was one night that sticks out to me. The sky was so beautiful, and you could hear the sound of the waves crashing up against the shore. The wind was slight, and the silence of the night was so calming.
We were on the porch at the beach house we were sitting at. On that porch was a hot tub, and what better way to spend the night then to just soak in it. That wasn’t the only thing that was great about that night though. My best friend & I just got to talk about everything. We do that all the time, but in this atmosphere, I just felt like we could open more and just talk. And we did, it was great:) Then we threw ourselves into the pool below and had a blast through out the night.
That whole week was a great memory of mine, and I hope we can do it again.
I was dreading this day, for I have look back to my first kiss(es). Don’t get me wrong, they are great memories, but I also have to dwell on the days when were so close.
So, me & … this guy were hanging out at my house. It was chill weekend in March, and we were doing what we do best, watch stupid movies and joke with each other. We had known each other for a little over three months and were already best friends. I wasn’t SO attracted to him, but as the night was coming to a close, I felt the strangest urge to kiss him. Of course, I was so scared that I was going to do something wrong and kept dancing around the subject and eventually I just kind of blurted out that I wanted to kiss him. He said he was gonna do it anyway, but I was just making things awkward.
Long story short, we eventually did kiss down in my basement, and it was quick & straight to the point. He said he didn’t care , he was just happy that we got to hang and that made me happy.
About a month later, we were hanging out again at our friend’s house. He had to leave, so I walked him out. Strangely, at this point, we STILL weren’t dating but every time we hung out, I just really wanted a goodbye kiss. Fortunately, that’s what I got. Before he got onto his bike, he came over and we had a nice kiss. I remember how his lips felt against me, and though it wasn’t fireworks, it was still pretty great.
That was the last time we kissed, and now, I would give anything in the world to kiss him again. We were best friends all through out the summer, but we broke off the thing we had. School started this year, and I started to realize how much this boy really meant to me. Sadly, he’s being the biggest douche bag in the world for somewhat reasonable reasons, but it still makes me cry at night knowing that he’s hurting and can’t tell me what’s wrong. I want him … so bad.
Don't feel stupid for missing him, even if he treated you like shit. You still had happy memories and you're always going to miss them. Just get through each day and eventually it will get better, I promise. Eventually someone will come into your life and whether or not you realize it, they are going to be something special to you. Someone better will come along.
When I'm older, and I go wedding dress shopping...
There is no way in hell I’m bringing all my family & friends.
I’ve been watching Say Yes to the Dress (YES, i’m lame) and these poor girls try to pick out dresses that THEY like, but their family and friends are always so harsh. They’ll be like “It’s so not you!” and it’s just like, HOW WOULD YOU KNOW!?
If it was me, I’d be like … Ok, I respect your opinion but at the end of the day, it’s my choice. It’s not like you have to wear it.
That was my random, pointless rant of the day. Enjoy. :)
My week has been chill beyond belief. I had school on monday & tuesday, but those days are seriously a blur. What we are all really amazed by is the snow, and our winter break part 2.
Wednesday was the day of the storm. Just when we thought we wouldn’t get any winter weather, we get up to 6 inches of snow. I sat inside, just watching the sky. It was gloomy, but a beautiful sight none the less. Then, yesterday, my dad was able to come pick my sisters & I up so we could go to his house. We then went sledding down this huge ass hill and ran into little kids, it was a blast. It also happened to be my step-mom’s birthday so we went to the melting pot again and stuffed our faces;)
Today, I slept in until 11, which was refreshing. I can’t even believe we are having a 7 day weekend, it’s just a great time to relax. I’ve been drinking coffee and watching Valentines Day, which is honestly a great movie. I’ll be going home to my mom’s soon, and probably just chillin.
Tomorrow, I’m going bra & panties shopping with my best friend, which i’m just too excited for. Who knows what will happen for the rest my weekend, all I know is that tumblr will probably be involved, hehe.