And I can’t even believe it. This year … was a eye opener. I loved and I lost, but I also had some of the most amazing times. I think I also became at peace with who I am and what I believe in.
The months of 2010 had much to offer. February brought us an unforgettable snow storm and a winter break i’ll never forget. March & April brought me my first kisses and crazy times with that rat pack of mine. Summer brought days of smoking and just not giving a fuck. I remember going to the Outerbanks with Kimberly, and just wishing I could stay there forever. Fall brought new friends and fun afternoons after school and winter consisted of movies…24/7.
This year also brought me a person who I might have really loved. Our late night phone calls are something I will always treasure. I will also always remember how is lips felt against mine. Then again, I will always be heart broken about how our friendship is ending. In this new year, it may just be best to make him something of the past, and find someone better.
Next year, I just need to … grow up a bit more. I need to focus on school and get a job. I also intend to began writing again and unleash my imagination:3
Who knows what could happen in this upcoming year. Come on 2011, be good to me.
Day 25 - What decade do you think you should have born in?
Well, I could be clique and say that I would’ve loved to live in the 80’s, but eh. I think I would’ve loved to be a teenager in the 90’s.
I mean, the movies and TV’s shows were the best back then. The music was also pretty bomb. Boy bands ftw. <3 I mean, I would loved to have to life in an age with less technology. Back to a time with VCR’s. Back to a time where you could walk anywhere at night and not have to worry about getting raped.
Yeah, those were the good years. I wish I could’ve have seen them.
It literally seems like just yesterday when I was watching you on the auditions of American Idol. I can’t believe you were 16. You had the most beautiful voice with the personality to match. I called you my teddy bear and vowed to support you through that whole season.
4 years have flown by. You turned 20 today, and I can’t even believe it. I’ve bought your albums, i’ve gone to your shows, i’ve even met you twice. Don’t let anyone tell you that you’re not good enough, because you always will be. Your fans are very dedicated and trust me, we ain’t going nowhere:3 Keep doing what you do best, show the world what you’re capable of! Much love. <3
I need to realize that he’s not gonna change. He hasn’t changed since he dated his last girlfriend. I really wish me & her got along because I know we could sympathize with each other. We’ve both been sweet talked and loved, but then dropped at the last second. She’s lucky to have found someone to take his place.
Sadly, I have not. I know it’s gonna take some time to get over him. Our relationship wasn’t simple, it evolved over the nine months we were “together”. The thing is, I think I would be able to forget him easier if there was someone else out there treating me better then he has been. There’s no guys I like specifically, but no one’s trying either. I think that’s why I’m getting desperate. I keep reassuring myself that he’s a good person and that will eventually sweep me off my feet. Thing is, he’s not gonna do that. He’s barely passing the 10th grade, he has no self confidence, and he’s just a jackass. Why would I want to be with someone like that anyways?
It’s funny how all my relationships end the same way. The guy ends up dropping me for no specific reason, and I end up wondering all night what I did wrong. I keep telling people that I don’t care about relationships in high school, but that’s just to cover up my disappointment that I’m not in one. It’s not that I’m not happy with my life, it’s just that … I can’t be around my friends that are in relationships and not feel … sad. I’m always third wheel, and I’m getting freaking tired of it. I just don’t want to be alone anymore.
Day 22 - What is your opinion on kids having kids?
What kind of question is this?
People have sex at a young age now, so there’s consequences. I don’t really have an opinion since it’s so common now. I just kinda think about how much it sucks that some of them just ruined their bright futures.